Trouble Writing

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2 Corinthians 4:13-15

Since we have the same spirit of faith as he had who wrote, “I believed, and so I spoke,” we to believe and so we speak, knowing that he who raised the Lord Jesus will raise us also with Jesus and bring us with you into his presence.  For it is all for your sake, so that as grace extends to more and more people it may increase thanksgiving, to the glory of God. 

Thought for the Day:  God speaks through those around us

“Why am I having trouble writing lately?” has been a question I have been asking myself recently.  As I look back over the time when I wrote every single day, I realize that my family and I were going through struggles that we didn’t understand.  We felt lost and we felt there was no way out of our situation.  We knew in those hard times that God was the only place to go for help.  So we did. During that time, we didn’t see God’s hand leading as much as we would have liked, and there were days we were so far down that we didn’t think we could get up.  One day, our pastor spoke of John Wesley and the time he felt he was losing faith and didn’t feel he could continue preaching.  John Wesley spoke this to a friend and the colleague responded, “Preach faith till you have it, and then because you have it you will preach faith.”  (Peter Bohler)  Well, I listened to our pastor and I cried.  I felt that I was being told, “Write faith till you have it, and then because you have it you will write faith.”  Every day I wrote and every day I continued listening for God’s words.  I did what I could do to keep my name before possible employers, and often my husband drove a 400 mile distance to prepare our previous house to be sold.  We did what we felt we needed to do to help ourselves.  Almost three months ago, we received word that our house was under contract and that I had a teaching position for the fall.  Both of those happened on the same day – God “showed up and showed out” right in front of us.  So what happened?  I fell down on the second part of Bohler’s word to John Wesley.  I “wrote” faith until I had it but didn’t “write” about God in response to the blessings God so abundantly gave us.  So much happened at one time that obviously came from God, but I didn’t share it in my writing.

Reflecting on my thoughts this morning, I realize that my writing came in our times of trial when we didn’t have anywhere else to lean except on Jesus.  It seems easy to write about God when you are leaning on Him so closely for, well, everything.  One would think that it would actually be easier to write when God’s hand is seen so clearly, but in a way it is actually harder.  Through this time when I should have been praising God from the rafters, I praised God inwardly.  Through this time, I have seen friends around me suffering and I didn’t want to “praise God” during their times of struggle.  Such conflicting thoughts – such wrong thoughts.  This is a time to “praise God from those rafters” to give those who are suffering a truth that God will be with them in the struggles and will bring them through by lighting their way through.  God did it for me and He will do it for them.

This morning I received two facebook statuses from friends who had been missing my writing.  Their words made me continue thinking about my reasons for not writing and made me think about why I should start writing again.  Excuses, many excuses, have been in my mind.  But I am hearing those words of John Wesley’s friend again.  Although we are still struggling in some ways, we see God’s hand leading us and we have faith that God has been with us all along –  “Preach faith till you have it, and then because you have it you will preach faith.”  It’s time I start writing my faith.  God is so good, and I want to shout it from the rafters.

Prayer:  Thank you, God, for bringing words of friends to help us get back on the right path.  Simple words spoken in love from friends so often come right out of Your mouth through them.  Help us listen more God to those around us.  Amen.

Prayer Focus:  Listening to God through friends

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