“Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”
Thought for the Day: It’s okay to wrestle with God occasionally
Waking after a night of restless sleep, I read The Upper Room Devotional where Jacob wrestled with God. As I read, I thought of my hours during the night of praying once again that God make His plan clear to me. As I spent time last evening writing a late letter to friends about our precious time in our new home and town, I wrestled with how to word my personal job situation. As I laid in bed, and literally moved to another location during the night, I thought about where God could use me where I could help my family out financially in some way. I am a teacher, a good teacher, but that teaching position has eluded me. As a dear friend asked me last week, “Why aren’t they giving you a job?”, I replied that I truly believe it is God, as my interviews have gone great and I have left each one thinking I probably had the position. I know, looking back, that God had other plans for me through this time as He has led me to write, take pictures, direct a children’s choir, and to be a good mother to my boys. But still no financial help. So, I still wrestle with God.
The writer of The Upper Room devotion for today seemed to be in the same situation I find myself in. He had training in a certain area yet couldn’t get a position. He had the thought, “Had I so completely misunderstood God’s direction, or had God simply given up on me?” When I read the author’s words this morning, I quickly knew this devotional was written for me. Now I ask myself, ”What has happened to me in my relationship with God during these months of struggle?” My answer is simply that I truly feel my relationship with God is stronger than it has ever been and that I know, in time, His way for me will become clear. In the meantime, I will continue wrestling with God and I will do the things He has placed in front of me that bring peace to me as well as peace to others. Could the writer’s thought for the day be God’s answer for me today, “Sometimes our failures provide the greatest opportunities to grow in faith.” Could my wrestling with God actually be what God knows I need to grow in my faith?”
Prayer: God, thank you for giving us words of wisdom from others as we read devotionals you put in front of us each day. It is amazing that You seem to give us exactly what we need in the words of others. In doing that, You let us know we are not alone. Be with us as we seek to determine your plan for us today. Amen.
Prayer Focus: Those in job transition