For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Thought for the Day: Work as if everything depended on you, and pray as if everything depended on God.
I awoke thinking about the God given gifts I have to offer and where God is leading me. To which I can say honestly, “I have no idea!” I find myself at a fork in the road that has many tines and I have no idea which road to take. I even tried to take a survey of my talents and the survey wouldn’t go through to tell me where my ministry talent lies. I then went to my husband and said, “What talents do you see in me?” He was shocked with my question but immediately put the Bible he was reading down and we talked. He said the question I asked was exactly the question he asked himself for over a year when his position at a church had been eliminated. Going through this questioning in my heart has made me think deeply about where I am going at this time in my life. My husband helped me immensely in our talk, and I understood more about how he felt during that desperate time when he was searching. He said, “What I realized was that I had to work for every possibility and wait.” He reminded me of the times he did not get positions he had applied for and how low he felt, but that God answered him eventually in such a big way that the rejections faded away.
As we continued to talk, so many thoughts came to my mind about so many aspects of my life. I have always loved to sing, and right now God has allowed something to happen to my voice that is keeping me from singing. I have, however, found myself truly Worshiping on Sunday mornings as I have listened to the music and the spoken Word. I have always loved every minute of teaching, and right now with my voice tired from teaching kindergarten babies all day and my body tired from our transition and move, I have found it more difficult. I have, however, found myself learning more and taking in the new aspects of a new school system and I have become more dependent on others to help me. I have always been told that I needed to “write a book” about my family when I was growing up, especially about living through the tragedies. I have finally begun writing. I have found such solace in my writing, and I have felt such love and understanding from those who have read my words. I still do not pretend that I am a good writer, but I have begun writing and have found that I truly love my time with God and my time sharing words He has given.
So, what does all this mean? I wish I knew. But, I know in time that God will lead me in the direction He would have me go. Right now, I am going to “work at every possibility and wait!” There is an old saying by D.L. Moody that says, “Work as if everything depended on you and pray as if everything depended on God.”
Prayer: God, thank you putting forks in the road and for helping us decide which direction to take. Be with us as we face life decisions and help us make the right decisions. You are an awesome God. Amen.
Prayer Focus: Those hearing God’s Calling